I have been having this desire in my heart that I wanted to share to the world what God has done in my life. Finally I decided to pen down this ‘adventure’ after listening to Ps. Robert’s sermon pertaining to Christ witnessing. For those who are aware of my experience, please bear with me ^^
Here goes:
I was diagnosed with this illness called ankylosing spondylitis and here are the links to its definition, symptoms, causes etc.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ankylosing_spondylitis
Due to this illness, I was suffering greatly in pain because of the immobility and stiffness of major joints such as joints in the lower & upper back, ankle, both shoulders and hips. It hurts every single second and it hurts even more when I tried to move. They severely affected my daily activities such as getting up and down from the bed, passing motion, getting on and off a vehicle, climbing stairs, picking up objects from the floor, wearing socks etc. Hence, I could not have a good rest at night when the pain was attacking me second by second and minute by minute even though what I did was just lying straight on the bed.
I had been to endless medical treatments, therapies and the effort was in vain. From government hospitals in Penang and KL, Chinese traditional doctor in Johor and up to specialist in
Experiencing every second of pain, I cried out to God- why is this happening to me? When I’m in the peak of my life to get a career and enjoy life, You stuffed me up with this illness and all I can do is seriously hoping my life to be taken away, away from this suffering. This is what I did every night. I cried out to Him, exactly like what Job did, “Why don’t you just take me away???, Why you brought me out of my mother’s womb in the 1st place???”
Yet, God is merciful and though He seemed silent throughout my hardship, His blessings still could be seen. Here are some of the pictures of the darkest days of my life:
Still could soar high with AirAsia^^
Thinnest ever in my life- 43KG. Don't be jealous ladies ^^
Despite my disability, I scored the highest CGPA of 3.83/4.00 in my 4 years of studies in my education course!
Despite my disability, God did not give up on me but to continue using me to fetch others without transport and serving in the church. Imagine I did all these when I had to use a walking stick wherever I went. Hard to believe? God is magnificent and indescribable.
After suffering for some time, God finally sent His people to aid me. I gave up on following a treatment last year thinking there would be no way for me to fork out RM 49,000 to undergo the treatment. One day I received a call from a drugs agent asking me about my current condition and whether I still want to undergo the treatment since financial aid can be applied. Sensing strongly she’s a child of God, I agreed. I was really amazed of God’s wonder when she told me she decided to reopen my case when she realized there was no follow-up action done. Months after that, I had my 1st treatment in HUKM with God’s mercy. The treatment works tremendously well in my body despite the mentioned side effects and I started to walk, run and jump! It has been a year now since my 1st treatment and I’ve completed a course of it. Whether to continue for another year, I have no idea at all and I’m not worried at all. Since God has brought me to this, He will bring me through it. v(^.^)v
